disappointment.
disappoint - to fail to meet the expectation of
That pretty much describes what has been happening
around me and with me in general. my life has lately been filled up with failures and unhappy moments, most are manageable but no one would imagine some of em happening to me.
The UPVC election of officers is a disappointment. i ran for VP internals but i guess they didnt see that i was fit for that position. so there goes my hopes of contributing something to my first org. i actually had a plan in mind that if ever i did not win, i'd be inactive. but that wouldn't really do good either. it's out tenth year and the org needs every help it can get to make this year remarkable. but darn this bitterness.. if ever i do get over this, i'd help as if i was in position. if i do get over this..
my academic life is not disappointing... it's more of abhorring. >__<
sometimes i project that this isnt me anymore. that im just going through some tough times and that i'll bounce back soon enough.. but i never did.. i never bounced back. now im about to pop my bubble hopes of running for honors. i dropped physical chemistry. and now, im at the fear of getting a failing grade in my organic chem lab. why? coz i havent been passing lab reports!!! why? i dont know. coz this isnt me and im just going through some tough times. sheesh. i have a final exam 2 days from now and i am here slacking off in front of the laptop chitchatting with friends and strangers alike. wow. what way to bounce back ayt?
what? you think the couple of the year would stay as sweet as they were the first time they kissed? my bf and i are going through rough waves in our relationship right now. yes it's disappointing. and yes, he is a disappointment. i dont want to divulge more onto what about him disappoints me. let's just say that he's been saying promises he can't keep. we're actually on cool off right now. and i am still deliberating with myself if i still want him back. Yes, there's no doubt that i still love him. but i just had enough of staying quiet about particular things that he's been doing which he knows i really, really dislike.
if he wants me back. he needs more effort now. i dont want to be that easy guy anymore that all you have to do is say iloveyou with a kiss and im yours. no. if he wants to get the sweet zye back he should work hard for it. prove to me that you really deserve that sweet zye.
me... i consider myself a disappointment...
i've been disappointing people all around me..
my barkada.. my friends.. my orgmates.. my family.. =(
i dont know what has happened to me.. and i dont know if i cant still snap out of this and go back to the ZY that you knew. yes, the ZY without the E. that zy was fun. that zy was the versatile zy. the adept one. the one who can balance joys, studies, tears.. life.
i dont know...
posted at: Thursday, March 29, 2007 02:30 p.m.
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